Monday, March 26, 2012
Saturday, January 15, 2011
Heart Prints
I used only dialects (Hokkien/Teochew) for my replies to my grandparents' questions.
And it was in bits or mix in with mandarin.
But I surprised myself today.
No, I should put it this way: it was the Lord's anointing.
From all of our conversations and games, I learnt the number of wards on each level of the nursing home, I got to know what time they wake up each day to do morning exercise, when is their lunch time and found out their favorite tv drama, food etc.
I signed up to 'sow seeds of love and to leave heart prints 'in their life.
I think it's more like they are the ones who filled my heart with warmth and faith.
We were entertained by one of them who is an awesome harmonica player. He was playing my favorite oldies- Theresa Theng to Frances Yip. He played a few other tunes and had song requests from his fellow residents.
There was one of this uncle who left the biggest heart prints in me. He loves fishballs, pig's liver and likes his rice to go with a little soup so that it's not too dry. He has a good appetite and uses his fingers to feel his food. He sings along with our performers and cheered with all of the servers. He attends church every Sunday. When we prayed, he affirmed the Lord's word with the loudest 'amen'.
I see surmountable faith in this visually impaired man.
He trusts our God with all his heart.
God, thank You for using me. Because of Your grace that You freely gave... I get to experience all of Your love for me.
God, thank You for using me. Because of Your grace that You freely gave... I get to experience all of Your love for me.
Without Lord Jesus, I can't be.
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
4th Jan: In loving memory
This morning, I cried in the train packed with people.
I thought of Grandma.
Ah ma, I miss you.
I thought of Grandma.
Ah ma, I miss you.
Saturday, January 1, 2011
2010 Reflection & 2011 Resolution
Inspired by last night sharing.
How was 2010?
My grandma, who was a big part of my childhood, departed in the beginning of last year.
I remember writing to God & telling Him how regretful I was. Because fear & avoidance kept me away... Her pass on strucked me: I could have cherish her more. What was I thinking? If I had the true courage to face all the naysayers.
I left my full time job in March because the employer was unethical. And ever since I've been taking up Temp/contract assignments. To date, I am still holding on to my 4Th temp job. Yes, $8/hr.
Friends on the "same track": Some started their family with beautiful kids and a shelter of their own. Others are doing well in their career. My younger sis is earning a stable income. In the world's point of view, I am struggling with all aspects of my life in 2010.
Yes, there were times my faith were shaken, questioning the Lord: How long? When is my appointed time?
I must say that I truly live and gained a lot in 2010. Matthias said it was one of my best year yet and I believe he saw the transformation in me. In the past, the fear of feeling the hurt stopped me from doing a lot of things that I could - the simplest thing: Open up my "guarded heart" to friends.
Because I accepted Christ on 7Th February- the day when a MASSIVE exchange took place. All of my past mistakes, screw up, wrong choices, decisions etc were redeemed by His mighty love for me...
I remembered that I was worshiping Him on a particular night, it was a new level for a new believer. My heart was bursting with joy. I learnt this from The Daily Bread: The Heaven rejoices and is throwing a party up there for each and every of His children's salvation. 7Th March: I tweeted this: It's everlasting, that's why the bees are dancing. Even the bees were clubbing late at night, up at 12Th storey, in my room. And that was my first step of my walk with God.
What did the Lord teach me last year? Stretch of faith. I didn't have prior marketing experience. I went to interview as an Ops Admin. My heart was ready to settle for something small than what God has meant for me. Overnight, the 6 months temp position was created for me. And there you go, 2010, I gained my very first marketing experience- Artwork, collaterals, Advertising, events and promotions for a shopping mall.
So 6 months contract has ended. I had 2 full weeks of "camp" with Him. I was learning all of Jesus and His Finished Work. Listening to Joyce Meyer's Podcast. Immersing in Pastor Joseph Prince's Devotional - 100 days of Unmerited Favor. You know, day to night- Soaking in His presence & feeding on Spiritual food. so, both spiritually & physically- I'm overweight. Haha.
Anyway, it is awesome start to learn true courage with the Lord. In kungfu context, I'm learning sword with my Father.
To begin this, I was a very timid child with bad temperament. Trivial matters, I would cry. Minor issues, I would threw tantrum. Kinda contradicting. A big part of me is an emotional being. Most time, I couldn't bear the sensitivity, the low-esteem thoughts. So, I decided to be cool and had an "exterior courage" since teenage years.
How was 2010?
My grandma, who was a big part of my childhood, departed in the beginning of last year.
I remember writing to God & telling Him how regretful I was. Because fear & avoidance kept me away... Her pass on strucked me: I could have cherish her more. What was I thinking? If I had the true courage to face all the naysayers.
I left my full time job in March because the employer was unethical. And ever since I've been taking up Temp/contract assignments. To date, I am still holding on to my 4Th temp job. Yes, $8/hr.
Friends on the "same track": Some started their family with beautiful kids and a shelter of their own. Others are doing well in their career. My younger sis is earning a stable income. In the world's point of view, I am struggling with all aspects of my life in 2010.
Yes, there were times my faith were shaken, questioning the Lord: How long? When is my appointed time?
I must say that I truly live and gained a lot in 2010. Matthias said it was one of my best year yet and I believe he saw the transformation in me. In the past, the fear of feeling the hurt stopped me from doing a lot of things that I could - the simplest thing: Open up my "guarded heart" to friends.
Because I accepted Christ on 7Th February- the day when a MASSIVE exchange took place. All of my past mistakes, screw up, wrong choices, decisions etc were redeemed by His mighty love for me...
I remembered that I was worshiping Him on a particular night, it was a new level for a new believer. My heart was bursting with joy. I learnt this from The Daily Bread: The Heaven rejoices and is throwing a party up there for each and every of His children's salvation. 7Th March: I tweeted this: It's everlasting, that's why the bees are dancing. Even the bees were clubbing late at night, up at 12Th storey, in my room. And that was my first step of my walk with God.
What did the Lord teach me last year? Stretch of faith. I didn't have prior marketing experience. I went to interview as an Ops Admin. My heart was ready to settle for something small than what God has meant for me. Overnight, the 6 months temp position was created for me. And there you go, 2010, I gained my very first marketing experience- Artwork, collaterals, Advertising, events and promotions for a shopping mall.
So 6 months contract has ended. I had 2 full weeks of "camp" with Him. I was learning all of Jesus and His Finished Work. Listening to Joyce Meyer's Podcast. Immersing in Pastor Joseph Prince's Devotional - 100 days of Unmerited Favor. You know, day to night- Soaking in His presence & feeding on Spiritual food. so, both spiritually & physically- I'm overweight. Haha.
Anyway, it is awesome start to learn true courage with the Lord. In kungfu context, I'm learning sword with my Father.
To begin this, I was a very timid child with bad temperament. Trivial matters, I would cry. Minor issues, I would threw tantrum. Kinda contradicting. A big part of me is an emotional being. Most time, I couldn't bear the sensitivity, the low-esteem thoughts. So, I decided to be cool and had an "exterior courage" since teenage years.
I thought I was independent & strong to deal with all. I wandered & wondered most of the time, doing things, going to places & exploring good food ALL with me, myself & I. I've been accustomed and overwhemed myself with this kind of lifestyle.
(I still think it is good because in life we need to isolate from the interaction & busyness to get to know yourself better in Christ or just your visions & goals etc)
(I still think it is good because in life we need to isolate from the interaction & busyness to get to know yourself better in Christ or just your visions & goals etc)
However, I realised that the courage that I gathered was self-conviction. and based on self-effort- constantly evaluating & feeling bad about myself. In recent years, it seems that the so call strength and courage is gone. Like I would be reluctant to join my care group and was nervy and awkward in front of people. I cowardly went back to my comfort level. and once again, the same mistake: I am ok, I can handle this... I don't need anybody... I'm seasoned to this.
But God is good. He gave me double love. I went away and came back to my siblings in Christ. I thought I lost it, but I gained double of their love. They are lovely people.
And since that 2 weeks camp with Jesus, I've work out a lot. God, Jesus & me- every fear that set my heart contracted, I'm gonna bring it out unto You... I'm gonna face it, fight it & overcome it with MY GOD.
That brings me to what I want for 2011.
1) True courage
I'm gonna earn my certificate from Heaven institutes. With Jesus as my instructor... EVERY GOOD THING IS POSSIBLE.
2) Financial Breakthrough
Dear God, you know my heart about this.
3) A marketing position
And yeah, this shall come at my appointed time. A job that is fun involving both figures & creativity. It would be awesome if occasional travel to overseas is required.
4) See my family & friends blessed
I'm happy to see 'em joyful. I so want to bring my family on a holiday trip.
5) my other "complete half"
^_^ Lord, bring us together at the appointed time. My heart shall knows that it is him.
I'm gonna end with this:
Whatever dreams or miracles that you're waiting for, remember... You're closer than you think! (Inspired by Joel Osteen).
Lastly, I sincerely pray that may all your 2011 be fruitful, joyful & prosperous. In Jesus name, Amen.
But God is good. He gave me double love. I went away and came back to my siblings in Christ. I thought I lost it, but I gained double of their love. They are lovely people.
And since that 2 weeks camp with Jesus, I've work out a lot. God, Jesus & me- every fear that set my heart contracted, I'm gonna bring it out unto You... I'm gonna face it, fight it & overcome it with MY GOD.
That brings me to what I want for 2011.
1) True courage
I'm gonna earn my certificate from Heaven institutes. With Jesus as my instructor... EVERY GOOD THING IS POSSIBLE.
2) Financial Breakthrough
Dear God, you know my heart about this.
3) A marketing position
And yeah, this shall come at my appointed time. A job that is fun involving both figures & creativity. It would be awesome if occasional travel to overseas is required.
4) See my family & friends blessed
I'm happy to see 'em joyful. I so want to bring my family on a holiday trip.
5) my other "complete half"
^_^ Lord, bring us together at the appointed time. My heart shall knows that it is him.
I'm gonna end with this:
Whatever dreams or miracles that you're waiting for, remember... You're closer than you think! (Inspired by Joel Osteen).
Lastly, I sincerely pray that may all your 2011 be fruitful, joyful & prosperous. In Jesus name, Amen.
Sunday, December 26, 2010
Friday, November 5, 2010
Monday, November 1, 2010
Last Sunday: Stay in realm of faith
Mark 11:24 (New King James Version)
24 Therefore I say to you, whatever things you ask when you pray, believe that you receive them, and you will have them.
Sunday, October 24, 2010
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
Friday, October 8, 2010
Saturday, October 2, 2010
It opens the floodgates of Love!
鄭秀文 - 不要驚動愛情
太想觸摸你 所以躲開你多少的距離 會讓你好奇
逃過你雙眼 才偷偷喘氣
吩咐我雙手 停泊原地
聽說浪漫的快 戀愛都去的快
我才 每一秒都放棄 說一直愛著你
我的愛洶湧像大海 而我卻要忍耐
只願一天你會醒來
愛情會像翅膀打開
還沒有擁抱不要意外 等待上帝安排
將來細水長流 我們才承諾
拿一生去換愛
太想要擁抱 所以在祈禱
求學會放手 慢慢去尋找
找不到完美 找天長地老
當雙眼模糊 還會擁抱
一步一步靠近 你才會珍惜我 的心
因為我還相信 有永恆的愛情
我的愛洶湧像大海 而我卻要忍耐
只願一天你會醒來
愛情會像翅膀打開
還沒有擁抱不要意外 等待上帝安排
將來細水長流 我們才承諾
拿一生去換愛
要為愛情學習按捺 把感覺收回來
依靠上帝讓我明白 被馴服的愛更精彩
帶著微笑去等待花開 用盼望去灌溉
在你情願一天 我們才擁抱
不止息的相愛
我的沉默叫醒愛情 你用期待把我吸引
繼續走近 直到開始愛
Sunday, September 26, 2010
Friday, September 24, 2010
Sunday, August 29, 2010
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
STOP SEX TRAFFICKING OF CHILDREN & YOUNG PEOPLE
The Body Shop Singapore "Stop Trafficking of Children and Young People" campaign
"Stop Sex Trafficking of Children and Young People" is a joint global campaign between The Body Shop International and ECPAT International, as well as local campaign partners UNIFEM and H.O.M.E.
The Body Shop has launched a petition – the most important phase of the campaign. It offers concerned individuals the chance to make a tangible difference to the issue, and aims to drive real change in each country and at a global level. To learn more, visit any The Body Shop stores, or online.
"Stop Sex Trafficking of Children and Young People" is a joint global campaign between The Body Shop International and ECPAT International, as well as local campaign partners UNIFEM and H.O.M.E.
The Body Shop has launched a petition – the most important phase of the campaign. It offers concerned individuals the chance to make a tangible difference to the issue, and aims to drive real change in each country and at a global level. To learn more, visit any The Body Shop stores, or online.
Sunday, August 22, 2010
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